So Sick

by NE-YO

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Abs bitter herbs...

David
Male, 26, Single
Last Login : 24 hours

:( I am not bitter.

and I am not affected.

:-/

Hmm... Friendster horoscope for 02.15.06

The Bottom Line
Your planning skills will be called upon when some friends come up with an idea.

In Detail
Stop feeling guilty about allowing yourself to actually relax for a little while. You've done nothing but work for months now, and you haven't whined or complained a bit. So isn't it time to be as kind to yourself as you would be to anyone else in your position? Give yourself a break -- and maybe even a whole night off as a special treat. If you can't quite bring yourself do it just yet, plan to do it this weekend. Oh, and bring a friend.

More 7's...

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Take the Asshole/Bitch Test!

I am 57% Asshole/Bitch.

I am abrasive, some people really hate me, but there may be a group of other tight knit assholes and bitches that I can hang out with and get me. Everybody else? Fuck ‘em.

Take the
Asshole/Bitch Test
@ FualiDotCom

Wonderful stress reliever...
Another nice stress reliever is the Euro Star Carnival running at the Fort til probably end of February...

It's a great alternative to drinking. And has the same effects. ;)

Dyspepsia?

or...

as Francis puts it...

I could just be allergic to bullsh*t.

I will be...

...right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance ...

Against All Odds

(Take a Look at Me Now)
Phil Collins
________

How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, oh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds
and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you, well that's all I can do
and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now,
cause I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oh

Just take a look at me now

Have You Ever?

Brandy
______

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get to their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found that one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do anything to look into his eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed you eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What I gotta do to to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep

Blog-worthy email from Liza...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find
what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was
not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behaviour.
Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he
has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men
are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the
bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...
there is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should
never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two
WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not
supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...
when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily
available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully
commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him
in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)... You'll make
someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

Love Actually...

Francis recently loaned me his original (yeah I just had to put that in! haha!) DVD of Love Actually, a movie that I had planned to watch ages ago but just never got the chance to buy the "pirated" one. Hahaha!

Am posting several of my fave quotes from the movie... starting w/ Billy Mack's utterly wonderful and quotable spout of profanity... :)


Fave Quotes from Love Actually

[having just sung the words "Love is all around me" instead of "Christmas is all around me" yet again]
Billy Mack: Oh! Fuck wank bugger shitting arse head and hole!

Prime Minister: Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.

Sam: But you know the thing about romance is people only get together right at the very end.
Daniel: Tell her that you love her. You've got nothing to lose, and you'll always regret it if you don't.

Karen: True love lasts a lifetime.

Juliet: We've never got friendly. I just wanted to say I hope that can change. I'm nice, I really am, apart from my terrible taste in pie. And it would be great if we could be friends.

Karl: Life is full of interruptions and complications.

Mia: I'll just be hanging round the mistletoe, hoping to be kissed.

Mark: But for now, let me say - Without hope or agenda - Just because it's Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth - To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you - Until you look like this
[picture of a mummy]

Billy Mack: When I was young, I was greedy and foolish, and now I'm left with no one. Wrinkled and alone.

Billy Mack: Hiya kids. Here is an important message from your Uncle Bill. Don't buy drugs. Become a pop star, and they give you them for free.

Jamie: It's my favorite time of day, driving you. Aurelia: [in Portuguese] It is the saddest part of my day, leaving you.

Sam: Let us go get the shit kicked out of us by love.

Daniel: You know, Sammy, I'm sure she's unique and extraordinary, but... the general wisdom is that, in the end, there isn't just one person for each of us. Sam: There was for Kate and Leo. There was for you. There is for me.
[holds up one finger]
Sam: She's "the one".
Daniel: Fair enough.

Prayer for Today...

LIFTED HEARTS PRAYER

(Formally known as the Circle of Hope Prayer)

WRITTEN BY TIGRESS LUV

~~Today let me see that my hurting and pain is a way of showing me I have insecurities that I need to work on. To heal my insecurities is to heal my pain. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to face my insecurities and fears and know that I don't have to look toward another to sooth them.

~~Today let me relax and feel safe in knowing that sometimes in life the worst that happens to us are often miracles in disguise. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to let go of what is behind me and look with anticipated joy to what magic and wonderful mystery the future may have in store.

~~Today let me hear my cries. Let me pray for the strength to step away from denial and live my life in forward. Today I pray for freedom through truth. Truth liberates, heals, and transforms. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to stop looking for happiness in things that may or may not come true.

~~Today let me remember that forgiveness is something I do for me. To forgive is to admit that all people are human and humans make mistakes. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to forgive those who have wronged me.

~~Today let me feel the warm light of dawn. Let the light show me that each day deserves to be a new day.Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to stop living my life in reverse.

~~Today let me understand that if I am to be without hope I am to be without a part in my life's plan. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to admit my role in my own misery, be it that of victim or that of volunteer.

~~Today let me touch the hearts of those who love me by admitting to my own pre-occupation with myself lately. Today let me find strength and courage within the Brokenheartsville Community to let go of ego and give the gift of love back to those who love me.

~~Today let me see. Today let me relax. Today let me hear. Today let me remember. Today let me feel. Today let me understand. Today let me touch.

To Let Go....Is not to regret the past,

but to grow and live for the future.

Is to fear less and to love more.
And I do

"LOVE YOU"
So I will...

"LET YOU GO"...

I hope... =(

What the...

Anak ng... *sigh* <-- and of course, there really are
websites who post these kinds of stuff...

Oh well...

How do I deal?

Dear God... (by Gela)

Gela’s Post on her Friendster Blog.
(with some of my insights and comments too.)
Thank God for people who write better than I do.
They seem to translate how I feel through their literary prowess. Every bit of what she wrote last July 03, 2005 is what I'm feeling now. It is nice to know that there are others who feel (or have felt) that way... But it doesn't make it any better... *sigh*

Dear God...

I'm hurting..they say that 'he who has the why could overcome any how' and now all i want is to know the reason why I am in this state so that i would be able to continue struggling. Loneliness has been such a strange place for me before but now it seems like the world is painted in black and grey.. I am not asking anything much.. just let me accept things the way they are and make it easy for me to live each day at a time. I'm tired of waking every morning crying..tired of pretending to be alright when deep down i'm dying, sadness slowly engulfing the best of me..

I thank you for giving me great friends though..they somehow lessen the pain i feel inside..but they can do only as much coz at the end of the day, it would all depend on me if i would be able to feel good with every smile and laughter that comes from me or would it only be a mask, hiding every bit of angst and bitterness i feel. I know that shedding tears is an act of courage, and right now all i want is to be strong. i wish that every tear that i cried would add up for me to muster the courage of wading in to the deep water of life alone without drowning.

all my life, i have never been the strong one..just about anything makes me cry and now, i have been put to the test once more on just how much i can take..please just let me be alright..i know it ain't easy since alot of questions has been swimming in my head..does he love me still? why am i always the one left alone? did i give too little or too much? is he happy despite not having me? and if he's happy, would that lead me farther from him? at this point i am hanging, and unless i find the answers to my questions, i know that day in and day out i would forever be in a daze.. wondering until i go crazy and yet not arrive with any answers..

i know that to love is to want the person to be happy but i never thought it to be possible to be happy even if you are not with the one you supposedly love.. if that's the case, is that still love? or is that feeling only a part of the past you once shared since the person is able to feel happiness without his other half..i never thought that to be possible coz this is the first time that i know i have ever truly loved someone... unconditionally... even if it seemed otherwise to that other person... i center my world on the person without meaning to.. it just happens that one day you wake up and your life depends on the person..
i just did not expect that to backfire on me since when the person decided to search for a new horizon, he would leave and take my world with him and the world i have known suddenly came crashing into pieces...now, i am left with nothing but my tears..

someday, please teach me the ways to be alone..someday, i hope i can face the mirror and smile to myself and say i'm okay.. someday, i will be better..someday, let me realize the worth of this all..someday, help me get by..taking each day at a time and through this pain, i hope i may be able to earn what it takes to love fully and unselfishly.. someday..

The lovers... the dreamers... and Me...

If you want the rainbow

you gotta put up with the rain.
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come shining through.
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep believing
The dream that you wish will come true.

--Cinderella

Remembering times gone by...

As soon as forever

is through
I'll be over

You =(

It hurts....

It hurts when you guys planned your future out together so perfectly but now you know he (maybe)is planning his future with someone else.

Sabi ni Yo... da?

Sometimes the most important thing that we get from a relationship is not the guarantee of permanence but the lesson that we learn from it when it fails. It’s not how much love we have received but how much love we have given. It’s not how many tears we have shed, but how much laughter we have shared. It’s not how many times we were accepted but how much we understood when we were rejected. In the end, it’s not always how much happiness we have had because of love but how much we have given that made others happy.

Naging happy nga ba sya? Parang hinde... :(

Mga muni-muni sa MRT & LRT =P

745am… One word to describe the Cubao MRT station especially on “Baclaran” day… Crappy. Well, any day at the Cubao MRT station, especially if it’s rush hour south bound is… CRAPPY. I don’t know how I can take it, but I manage to push and shove and squeeze myself into the train. Icky sweaty people pushing and shoving around also in a rush like you. Manners are unheard of. Literally, it’s a dog-eat-dog world. But… it beats driving around Metro Manila’s crappier highways and streets. (Magkaka-wrinkles lang ako!) and for 11 bucks, I’d bear the pushing and shoving, just to get to my destination w/ less (wow, less ba talaga???) stress and time consumption. Dang, wala na kong Stored Value!!! And the line is taking forever. Mali pa ang pinilahan ko! Argh! =( Time to take the … dreaded Edsa bus.

800am … I have ADHD. I cannot stay in line for more than 15 minutes tops! (except for Mango sales, and what nots. Haha!) Argh time to take the dreaded bus along Edsa going to work. Darn. It’s my first time to ride the bus along EDSA!!! Ack! Ooh… malamig pala.. at walang tao. Guess everyone’s so excited to go to Baclaran all at the same time!!! Ba’t kaya hindi nila i-timing ng ibang oras ano?? Kelangan lahat sila 8am pumunta. Sheesh. Oh well. At least the bus ride wasn’t too crappy as I imagined it to be. And … parang may special lane sila? =)

900am… Am attending this interesting Brown Bag session, but I couldn’t bring myself to listen or pay attention. *sigh* Bad trip. I still think of D. and … I cry. =(

I’m such a loser.

Please kill me.

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together.

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you. ~Toto